GAH!!!!

I am applying at BYU-I and BYU-H and just to put in the application is stressing me out! They ask if I have done anything in my commjunity and all this other stuff but I just didn't do that kind of stuff I hope I can get into it! I trust in the Lord ad know what he will help me get to where I need to go. I know this is right and I know that he won't lead me astray! He will help me go where I need to go. He has a plan for me and now I just need to trust in that plan. I have a friend on a mission right now and he wrote me a letter and in that letter he wrote D&C 6:36 and it says, "Fear not, Doubt not." and I really like it because I just need to trust and I am so happy that my friend wrote that cause it is something that I really needed to hear.

I have had just so many directions that I can go so many good options, What do I pick? Where do I go? I just want my life to be productive. I want my life to mean something to someone else, I want to be somebody. I want to have a cute little family with a loving husband and and I want my kids to be active, I know I'm "strange" for thinking this stuff out loud cause it isn't normal to talk about this kind of stuff but truth be told I really want a good future I don't care if I'm rich, I just want to be stable and not have to worry about debt or anything like that. I really want a good future and the only way to do that is if I work had at it, but I also can't do it without the Lord. He is my saving Grace. I owe him everything!