What I owe

Growing up I wasn't the prettiest girl, I was the one who did like to wear make-up and when I did it was done poorly. I was the girl that was brushed off to the side, always "friend zoned". To this day, I am still pushed to the side. I have a fun personality and I look pretty I don't get asked on dates and all guys ever want from me is to be friends. Today I have come to a realization that I am okay with that. Yes I want kids and I want a family but the Lord has a plan for me and he knows where I am going and I need to put all of my faith in him. He isn't going to lead me somewhere where I am going to get permanently hurt. Yes he is going to send me through trials and a lot of my trials are going to be self-inflicted, but I know that God is there and that He hears my prayers. He is there on the other side cheering me on, He is there reminding me how beautiful and special I am in his eyes! I may not be something that everyone is looking for but I am someone that God is perfecting for that special someone! God is great and I owe him everything!