The Little Things

Alright. Here's the scoop. 

IT'S MENTAL HEALTH AWARENESS MONTH! 

( #mentalhealthawareness #intomentalhealth )

So I am going to school for social work correct? So we get to talk and learn about mental health. I think that mental health is so super important. 

Everyone should be concerned about their mental health. When I was in the temple like I said last post a though came to me. I need to not just take care of my mental health but also take care of my physical health. Usually it's reversed. 

What can I say, I like to make things complicated. 

HAHAHA 

Anyway, today was kind of rough. I had this huge project due for a teach who doesn't really even know what he wants....No joke...he doesn't have a rubric. 

So I was working on this early this morning until class at 12:45. I didn't eat. Then right after class I had to rush straight to work. until 5. So I ordered Jimmy Johns as I ran to my car.

Okay fine. I walked to my car. 

But that has been my day today. I just feel as though I don't want to do anything at all. Actually, I would like to go home take a nap and sleep for 39 million hours. And not care about homework. 

BUT! Here is a bonus. I haven't had Great Scotts today. 

So really I count that as a small victory. 

The weight of weight

Hi! My name is Mindi Olson and I am going to start blogging about my adventures of weight loss. First let me start out by telling you a little bit about myself. (I know I've had this blog for 7 years...but here is to a fresh start). Also, I don't really think anyone is reading this so...that's cool. But I am currently in my last semester at Brigham Young University - Idaho. That's right. The freezing tundra of Rexburg Idaho. Probably the coldest place on earth during the winter. Once we were colder than Antarctica...and the North Pole. o.0 I don't really get it either. 

Continuing on though, I am graduating with my bachelors of Social Work. No, I am not planning to go in and rip families apart. I actually am wanting to get involved with mental illness. (Shout out to mental illness awareness month! #mentalhealthmonth #intomentalhealth ). The plan is to graduate in July and get my Masters in behavioral health. Or community intervention. I will actually be going to Boise to attend a leadership conference where they teach me how to be a leader in the community, and how to talk to legislatures and such. I'm real excited about that.

Now the nitty gritty. Why this blog is starting up again. So I was in the temple, the one that is for The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints, and I was in what we call the celestial room. I was sitting there talking to God and I felt that I needed to change some of my habits. I was then prompted by a challenge....To lose 100 lbs in one year! Sounds next to impossible right? But I know that the Lord isn't going to have me do anything that He doesn't think I can accomplish. Because                  I know I can do all things through him. 

So, the heaviest I have ever been was 315. 

(This is about the time I was the heaviest. And yes that is Scotty McCreery)

When I got on the scale and saw that my self-esteem tanked. I felt as though I was ugly. I mean I could do my make-up and look good!! But when I looked at pictures of myself I saw that I had no neck. I could see how my body began to sag over other parts of my body. I saw how my stomach just pudged out. Also, something that's kind of funny...I HAVE NO BOOBS!! Okay, seriously though, I have nipples and stuff, but my boobs legit have never come in. I am eternally grateful for super padded bras. But it's quite comical because usually bigger women have huge boobs. Not me. I don't even think I could classify as an A-cup. But anyway, every time I looked at myself I got sad. I got sad when I had to sit in stadium seating and couldn't fit in the seat. I got sad when my friends wanted to go to what's called the ice caves and I didn't want to go because I was afraid I wouldn't be able to make it. I got sad when I was a slow walker and start breathing heavier because of how out of shape I am. When you walk into a room and you scan to see if there is a chair that you can sit in and not have a fear of breaking. Camp chairs are the worst! I don't sit in camp chairs in public, random fact. Or getting into cars and having to sit sideways so that people can fit comfortably.  

Needless to say it consumed my thoughts.

I began to pray because I felt stuck. I felt like I wanted to lose the weight, but I didn't want to change. I liked going out and eating pizza with my roommates at 1 in the morning. I liked celebrating with ice cream. OH! And I LOVE getting what's called 'redneck sups' from a gas station in Rexburg called Great Scotts. If ever you are in town, you should get one! My personal favorite is 'Victorias not so secret'. It's Mountain Dew and some other yummy stuff. But I love eating. If I was sad, I ate. If we were celebrating, we ate. I got to this point where food was becoming more important to me than my relationships with people. Once I recognized that I was scared. I didn't want to be that way. I didn't want food to consume me. 

I want to be someone who has a long healthy life. I'll post more in another post about my family history of diabetes and my experience with it. It's a fun one.

But most of all I want to be able to feel good about myself. I want to be someone who is successful. I want to be someone who feels beautiful. I don't want to be told I'm beautiful. I want to FEEL it. I want to be someone who is around for a while and has good health. I know I can do that. I know I can become that. And so that is why I have accepted this challenge from my Heavenly Father to lose 100 LBS in one year! So starting today on May 3, 2017 until May 3, 2018 I will be trying my best to lose weight and creating a happier healthier life. 

Because I will not let food consume me. 

 I just wanted to add this because I think it is funny. 

Tonight's scripture findings

This week my sister stayed with me, let me to tell you, I AM WIPED!!! She is still here and will go home tomorrow. I will blog more about our adventure later. But every night we have been reading the scriptures and last night she said "Mindi why do we have to read our scriptures can't we just go to bed?" I replied with an answer that everyone always gives, "Because the prophet asked us to read them everyday so we do." Well going to bed tonight we say our prayers and get her tucked in bed and just as I'm walking out the door she turns to me and says, "Scriptures!!" I then lay down and read her two verses but the one verse that stuck out to me was

1 Nephi 17:3

"And thus we see that the commandments of God must be fulfilled. And if it so be that the children of men keep the commandments of God he doth nourish them, and strengthen them, and provide means whereby they can accomplish the thing which he has commanded them; wherefore, he did provide means for us while we did sojourn in the wilderness." 

What a blessing to know that as long as we keep the commandments, he will keep his end of the deal!! We are so blessed to have this wonderful opportunity to be able to return to him and live with him forever! I love this Church and I know with every fiber of my being that it is true. I know that God lives and that he sent his son to die for my sins. Any wrong doing that I may have done have been taken away. If you have any struggle in your life turn to God, He is the answer forever and always. He is the beginning and the end, He will not leave you hanging without a clue of where you are going. He will give you every opportunity to return to him. HE WANTS YOU HOME! 

Life in the Burg

Up here at BYU-I they have what's called a track system, where you go to school for two semesters and are off for one semester. Out of the three semesters there are spring, fall, and winter. I am on the spring fall track, so I don't go to school during the winter. They do have an option where you can take a few classes while you are off track but, I didn't do that this semester because I owed the school a little bit of money, and by little bit I mean $250.00! Yea, I owed a lot. So I think what I am going to do is to go home during spring and take a few classes online! Work at Great Clips again and make some money where I can then return and continue on with school! I love it up here, I love the life I have created, I love my friends, I love my job and I love the small town feel! I really don't want to go home...I mean I do, but I love it up here so much. I just wish I had a little extra money so that I could go out and do activities!! But we are all struggling college students, I know I'll make it out alive!! haha

What I owe

Growing up I wasn't the prettiest girl, I was the one who did like to wear make-up and when I did it was done poorly. I was the girl that was brushed off to the side, always "friend zoned". To this day, I am still pushed to the side. I have a fun personality and I look pretty I don't get asked on dates and all guys ever want from me is to be friends. Today I have come to a realization that I am okay with that. Yes I want kids and I want a family but the Lord has a plan for me and he knows where I am going and I need to put all of my faith in him. He isn't going to lead me somewhere where I am going to get permanently hurt. Yes he is going to send me through trials and a lot of my trials are going to be self-inflicted, but I know that God is there and that He hears my prayers. He is there on the other side cheering me on, He is there reminding me how beautiful and special I am in his eyes! I may not be something that everyone is looking for but I am someone that God is perfecting for that special someone! God is great and I owe him everything!

Why are boys so shallow?

Hello my name is Mindi, I am an amazing girl. I am funny, smart, and very pretty. I know I am over weight, and I am comfortable with it. No it's not where I would like to be. No I wouldn't mind having a flat tummy and being a size 6 but you know what? I am happy with myself and who I am. I just don't understand why guys can't seem to understand and see what I see. I ask some of my guy friends what is wrong with me. They all seem to reply, be more flirtatous. If any of you know me and know who I am, you will know that I am very flirtatious. I am very outgoing and will get any job done, I'm not afraid to be who I am and I'm not afraid to go out of my way for people. I am a very fun lovable person who has an amazing testimony of The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints and am willing to share what I know with those I love and those that I don't know. I love everyone, and if I don't seem to love someone right away I will find something that I can love about them. I am a very happy bubblely person and people love to be around. I know that sounds conceited, but I think that it is a good self-esteem. I know who I am and I'm not afraid to be me. The one thing that has been on my mind the last couple of days is that no matter how hard I flirt and no matter how nice I am and how many times I talk or hang out with guys I can't get them to ask me on a date. I have plenty of guy friends, why don't any of them ask me on a date? Because they are all shallow!! I don't want to sound mean when I say this but it is true. What have I done to make it so that guys don't want to go out with me? I know this sounds like a pity party. But I don't eat that much a day and I'm not gaining weight but I'm constant with my weight. I was with a friend tonight and within an hour she had gotten 4 phone calls from 4 different guys to go on 4 different dates. She is very pretty and is awesome. I just don't understand, Like most spouses say to one another, "I will always love you, But I don't have to like you." I almost feel this way towards God at this moment. I just want to know where I'm going what I'm doing where I'm going to end up and what I'm going to be doing for the rest of my life. But I know that he is looking over me and knows what is best for me. I know that he has foreordained someone for me so that I may be able to join the celestial kingdom with my family forever and ever into the eternities! I AM A DAUGHTER OF GOD and there is nothing or no one that could tell me otherwise!!

BYU-I

Well I am enjoying it here in in Idaho. I realized that I really hate homework...I also have found that I am super poor! Well I wasn't, then I quit my job and decided to go back to school. I really do love school and the learning aspect. But I hate the homework and the fact that I had to leave my friends and family....I miss them....But I am having a lot of fun and I'm really enjoying myself....I will write more later!!!!

How selfish of me

The Lord has a plan for me. He knows where I need to go and what I need in my life to make me happy. He knows me better then I know me, So why was I questioning his judgement? He knows better then me I just need to trust in My Lord and My God. I came across a scripture yesterday and it was, 2 Nephi 22:2 - "Behold, God is my salvation; I will Trust, and not be afraid; for the Lord JEHOVAH is My strength and My song; He also has become my salvation"

Our end goal is to end up living with our Heavenly Father once again, So why should I question him when all he wants is to bring me home. I want to go home to Him one day and I will make it there. Me and my future family, We will all be there smiling into the face of the Lord as we return to live with him for eternity.

I will follow My Lord to the ends of the earth if that is what it takes for me to get back to his loving arms. He has a plan for me and I am willing to listen to what he wants from me.

BYU-H

Well I also got accepted into BYU-H....I have since been trying to get on to their website to accept while I try to figure out between Idaho and Hawaii....But strange cowincidence Hawaii's website isn't working but Idaho's is working just fine....I think I got my answer...but why is it hurting that I applied, I got accepted (which I hear is so hard to do), and yet I'm not allowed to go....I don't like not knowing why....I'm sure I will figure it out one day but....until then why...Why?! I just wish I understood....ugh...It has made me very frustrated at why I was accepted but yet I'm not suppose to go....(There is more than just the website not working that has made my decision for me) But it just frustrates me....I need to go serve someone....Get my mind off of it....

I'm on my way

I haven't gotten accepted...but I feel SO confident!!! The Spring semester starts in April and so I will have 3-4 months to get ready and prepared!! Life is just so amazing right now! I feel so blessed with success. But in church yesterday I was listening to our relief society lesson when the question hit me...."What happened to my dream about becoming a mother?" Where did that dream go? I would day dream about the day that I would begin my family, What my children would look like how they would act, how many I would have. I waited for this day like a little one waits for Christmas, but yet as I sat there yesterday I realized I had almost moved on....Sure success is great but our ultimate goal is to return to Heavenly Father with our families...Right? How can I return with my future family if I don't have one? Yesterday hit me hard, "Where are my priorities?" and yes school and knowledge is great and we will take that with us but...being by yourself is no fun. We have the opportunity to procreate. Our Heavenly Father gave us the ability to take his children and raise them as our own! He gave us our life so why don't we create a life for someone else, Bring the spirits to earth to obtain a body and have the same experiences as us. I love my family and everything my parents have sacrificed for me to come here and have this wonderful oppertunity, And I am greatful for the oppurtunity that one day I will have a family of my own and that I have been intrusted with this sacred responsibility.

*So Blessed*

BYU-I

I just have to get an interview with my bishop and stake president about my admissions into BYU-I and I am done with my application!!! This is crazy I hope I get in...it just feels so right...and if it isn't the Lord will send my in another direction. My full faith in Christ!!

Early to bed early to rise!

Last night my back was killing me to the point where I put on this electric shock vibrating thingy. and it helps my back to feel better! But It was still hurting and I was tired to I just went to bed at 7!!! That is the earliest I have gone to bed in a long time. but I slept until 6 AM!!! that is 11 hours of sleep!!! CRAZY! But when I awoke I had a cute little text waiting for me and it read, "Hey Mindi, I missed ya for games tonight. HOpe you sleep well and I"ll talk to ya tomorrow :)" Oh how nice of a friend to send me a sweet text message!! But I am pumped and ready for the day!!! I also called BYU-I and they told me that I have a 97% chance of getting it!! BOO-YA!!!! I feel so happy!!!

Amazing night!!!!

Tonight was SOOO much fun! I went to temple square with two of my very best friends!!! We went to California Pizza Kitchen for dinner and had a blast there! Then Michelle and I took Trax home and Kristin went in her car and we went and got Brandon and we all hung out. 

While driving I was standing in the car out of the sun roof (Dangerous I know...) But it was so much fun!! The thrill was amazing feeling the wind in my hair. Then we went to park, and we slid down the slide and everyone but me decided it was too cold so then we went to McDonalds and I played on the playground while everyone sat and talked. Then these two boys came and started being all "cool" like and telling me that if I fell they would give me mouth to mouth and it was really funny haha

I think Michelle was a little embaressed by me but that is okay. I am who I am I shouldn't be basing me actions on what other people are thinking or saying about me. Let them say what they want I will mind my own business and let the Lord deal with them later who am I to judge them? I am no one compared to God in the sky who is all knowing and powerful!!!

I am kind of really sad for the example I have set for my siblings, I almost feel they are disappointed  in me. At Great Clips I occastionally have to work a Sunday. I am sad by this but I needed the money, I guess that fear not doubt not comes back into play here. I feared man, but I had made some bad decisions leading me into the postition I was in, I have since then corrected the problem and am now working on saving money to go to school and such!!! With the Lords help I will be getting there eventually.

Kristin, Me, and Michelle Just hanging our at Temple Square

Kristin's future Marriage pose!!

Taking a picture at California Pizza Kitchen

(If you look close enough you can see the group behind us posing as well!)

Michelle's future wedding pose!!

 

Pretty sure she 3rd degree burned her tounge!!

Kristin driving us around town!

Michelle just hanging in the back seat!

We finally picked up Brandon and the flash was really bright!

Well I am super tired and will unfortenetly beworking tomorrow morning!! :/ ntually I

Almost 2 years later!

I graduated in May and I am working at the Great Clips near my house. I went and applied at the Great Clips before my licence even came in the mail luckily in came the day I had to take it in to  sign paper work. Counted my blessings greatly on the that one. Just means it was ment to be. I am still at the Rec Center and so I have the two jobs and am still watching Amber while both my parents work full time.

I am still single, I did have a boyfriend for 2 weeks then he went on a mission and is now serving in the Tempe, Arizona spanish speaking. Our group is all proud of him and the decision he has made. There is someone that I am almost in love with but he has no idea, well maybe he has an idea, be we have never verbally talked about it. But I feel him and I could really make things work....If only, It's just a dream something that I have envisioned but is probally  never going to happen. He is truely amazing, he wants a big family is willing to Work (which is hard to find these days) to support himself He has this personality that everyone likes, there is not a single person in the world that can not to him and not leave feeling better, He has an amazing personality to where he can turn everything into a joke, He is very patient and in the 5 years I have known hiim I have never heard him raise his voice in anger. This man is amazing in so many levels and I hope that one day I might be able to tell him or that something might happen but I believe that we are only going to be friends and it saddens me to say that....

GAH!!!!

I am applying at BYU-I and BYU-H and just to put in the application is stressing me out! They ask if I have done anything in my commjunity and all this other stuff but I just didn't do that kind of stuff I hope I can get into it! I trust in the Lord ad know what he will help me get to where I need to go. I know this is right and I know that he won't lead me astray! He will help me go where I need to go. He has a plan for me and now I just need to trust in that plan. I have a friend on a mission right now and he wrote me a letter and in that letter he wrote D&C 6:36 and it says, "Fear not, Doubt not." and I really like it because I just need to trust and I am so happy that my friend wrote that cause it is something that I really needed to hear.

I have had just so many directions that I can go so many good options, What do I pick? Where do I go? I just want my life to be productive. I want my life to mean something to someone else, I want to be somebody. I want to have a cute little family with a loving husband and and I want my kids to be active, I know I'm "strange" for thinking this stuff out loud cause it isn't normal to talk about this kind of stuff but truth be told I really want a good future I don't care if I'm rich, I just want to be stable and not have to worry about debt or anything like that. I really want a good future and the only way to do that is if I work had at it, but I also can't do it without the Lord. He is my saving Grace. I owe him everything!

Update

I am currently attending school at Salt Lake Community college, where I am studing coosmetology/ Barbering/ and ethetics. I am on a 3 way rotation and am now currently in the ethetics rotation. I am happy with it and am doing rather well.

I am also attending the singles ward where yes surprisingly I am single.

I am still living with my parents and watch Amber everyday of my life, not that it is bad but It can sometimes get a little over whelming.

I am currentely hired on at the new Herriman rec center which opens on March 19th, 2011. That is when I will start working part time and on call. I need a new job. If there is anyone out there that is hiring I would love to come and improve your business! I can babysit type and am a very lovable person

I am trying to lose weight and to start running. So far in 2 weeks I have lost 8 Lbs. then I got a little to confident and ate a whole bunch of crap over the weekend....I've been scared to get back on the scale. you know I know it's now going to be an overall change but if I want it I am seriously going to have to work hard at it. I know I can do it because I have done it before. it'll happen one day.

My best friend Kamille and Kristin and I want to get an appartment together one day! :D I think it'll be a lot of fun..but I need a job and stuff like that...ugh! lol

Til next time PEACE!

Mandy Moore - Only Hope

I love this song!!! Kamille Ealy and I would watch this movie over and over again!!! :D Kamille! Girl I love you!!!!

Well life as a Cali girl is great as we know it! waking up 7 every morning, get off at 11. From there I help around the house and kind of keep up with the kids! Then they go for a nap about 1pm and then I go take a nap or color or do whatever I want!!!!!!! :D hehe then the kids are up about 4 and then Mike gets home about 4:30 and we start dinner! They make some pretty dang good food! :D yummy! Then after dinner we do some kind of family activity! :D Then the kids go to bed about 8 and we have the rest of the night to play wii or watch a movie or play games!! It's awesome! :D
I also went to the singles ward! :D I was so scared! It was deathly quiet and I didn't know anyone! Then I sat next to this girl named Alissa and lucky me! That was the exact person that Mike and Kenzie was going to introduce me to to get some friends! Yay me! needless to say Alissa and I hang out a lot! We go to singles ward and she took me to the fireside and then this week, yesterday, we went to the YSA dance! Met some cute guys and some awesome people! It was a tie-dye theme and Alissa and I went for 80's I had a side pony and was totally rockin the 80's look and Alissa looked cute...I was the only 80's oh well! hehe It was a blast and then I got home about 12:30 and got to bed about 1 because I was up talking to Kenzie and Mike about the dance! Well, tonight there is a ward movie night! Alissa and I are goin!
Well this moring I woke up to a phone call from my daddy saying how they put $50 into my account! I love them so much! They do so much for me! :D LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!!!!!
Well, it's lunch-time and we are having pizza and the kids just did the pizza dance,....need I say more?! hehe

Cali

I am in California! Woot Yesterday after getting off the plane Allison and I went straight to the hospital. Everyone is doing good baby baylynn is super cute and kenzie didn't look so bad after giving birth! we were at the hospital til 10 which is 11 utah time and I was wiped! so Allison took me home to sleep this morning I woke up and found everyone eating in the kitchen, once done we all went back to the hospital so that the rest of the family could met their new addition. We are now home and napping. I was thinking I just might take a nap. But there is so much that needs to be done! Such as unpacking! haha Until next time!

We have just looked at plane tickets...We are getting standby tickets from our neighbor! :D Thanks Lu! But we are thinking about possibly Monday I would leave at 11:21 and land at Long beach about 12:30 and then have a layover til 4 and arive in Sacremento about 6 :D I have huge butterflies in my stomach! I don't know if it has to do with the 2 finals I have this week! And it doesn't help that I haven't even touched my stuff for packin! hahaha Oh well! We will be having a great weekend! I have a final tonight and a lunch in eith my friends tomorrow then another final tomorrow night and then I don't know if My uncle Leland and I are going to hang out or what! I should call or maybe text him! Then on Friday morning I am going to go to girls camp for the last time then we will come home Saturday about noon and then We have a family reunion that I would like to attend but my dad wants us to go to the demolishion derby in Tooele! Which would be a blast! But...I still want to spend time with my extended family while I spend time with my imediate family! Then Sunday we will go to church and I think it is birthday Sunday! Then after Sunday is...MONDAY! And I would fly out! Well...I have to go and look professional for my final! Wish me luck! :D

California girl!

In about a week I will be a California girl! Im so....anxious! Nervous and scared and the same time! :D hehe Woot! I am stressing out! and not just cause of the move I have finals this week! :D I am nervuos but I feel good about it...if that makes sense! :D hehe Well I got to go babysitting! :D Peace!

California

Well...I'm off to California! :D We are thinking it best that I get out there as soon as I can which will probally end up being Aug. 9th! I'm so super excited! I wish I could pack up people and just take them with me! That would be so uber great! But...unfortenetly I can't. Oh well! hehe

Today!

This morning I woke up to waffles! :D YUM! They were great, then I got onto the computer to check my e-mail and get on facebook and all that jazz! Well I logged on to my e-mail and saw an e-mail from a guy that works at United American! He saw my resume and wants to interview me!!! :D I'm way excited! He said that beginnersaverage about $50k-$100k thier first year! WOOT! I'm way uber excited and hopes everything goes well!!!! :D

Today is a good day

This morning I got to sleep in til 10! I also had a sleep over with my dear sister Amber! Oh last night I found out that this girl in my class (Kathy Carmen) lives 2 doors down from my grandma, and that she has known her since she was little!!! :D Also last night we went on a feild trip for class and got out at 7! We went to Apple bees, It was so good! I had won ton tacos! Yum! It had pulled pork in it with Asian colslaw and then celontro! It was super amazing! But anyway back to today! So I woke up and I applied for 5 different places! Then I got offered another long term babysitting job! Woot! And I am currently at Heather's house babysitting....Yes the baby is sleeping!!!! That just totally made my day! :D We shall see how the rest decides to plan out!!! :D hehe

ya know

You know, I haven't posted in quite some time now! :D So I think I shall do so! I am currently babysitting for my mothers cousin Heather! :D She and her husband have a cute little 6 month old named aiden! One thing I have learned about Aiden is that he loves to scream! So I set him in his swing and magic...he stops!!! :D I believe that swings are magical! I love swings!!! You can swing how ever high, high enough to touch the sky! And no matter what, your NEVER to big for a swing! :D

You know, my mother is in Las Vegas right now! Her and our neighbor Amber Richerdson! They are down there doing business together. They won't return until Tuesday night!! Hope they are having fun!

You know, in the last 2 days I have slept in my room I have gotten some spider bites....I have counted up to 30! wow they itch so bad!!! UGH!

You know, I have decided that I am a brat who doesn't do anything! Sure I will do things here and there....but I don't do a whole lot! I am a spoiled brat! Ya.....Even when my parents ask me to do the little things I have a hard time doing them. I feel bad! My parents put up with so much that dish out! Sorry mom and dad! I love you!

Well we are starting to scream again...Bye!

July

It is now July! We had some wonderful weather yesterday at our street party! We had two blow up water slides a whole bunch of food and lots of people to share it with!

To start the day off yesterday, I drove out to Tooele! I had the privilege to march in the parade with some of my old dear friends!! After the parade was over I got in my car and went to see if some of my other friends the Acosta's were home. I called Hayli on her cell and she answered! They had a 20 minute wait at Jim's and invited me over to say hi! So...I went, they got called to their table and invited me to eat with them! I accepted! I ate a wonderful chicken sandwhich while disscussing past, present, and future with friends. After that I crusied to Kristin's mom's work where I waited for kristin to get there so we could go to my house. When I got there I called her and found out she was still a half hour out. So I turned off the car and went inside to see if I could use a bathroom. (Her mom works at discover card) And I will tell you that they have some pretty up tight security! The doors stay locked unless someone lets you in...and I had to pee really bad. Needless to say that they never came for me...So I went back to the car and got really hot so I decided to turn the car on so I could cool down with the A/C but no luck....The car's battery was dead! So i sat there and sat there and sat there just trying to get my car to start. Well eventually I flagged down a security car and he helped jump start my car. Just as he was finished Kristin showed up! WOOT! So we hoped in the car and took off to the street party!

Once at the party we attempted climbing up the "big boy" slide...Ya...we both failed! So we went to the little kid slide...again failure! But eventually we made it up the baby slide! Don't worry though Krysteen's friends were all there to laugh and make fun of us! But that is why a good sense of humor is for...If you don't laugh at yourself...what are you going to laugh at? But we continued to slide and have fun when we decided we wanted to go swim in our pool...We lifted the cover and yuck! the pool was green! It was a swampy color green! but it was SO warm almost like a hot tub warm. So we got my mom over and she put chemicals in it! Well we got in the pool (even though it was still green) and we started to "mix the chemicals around" The green was slowly fading away! We still couldn't see our feet though...My dad came to tell us to get out because he didn't want any of us to have an allergic reaction....(smart dad!) While I was talking to him something grabbed my foot!!! Yes I screamed...everyone laughed and Dallin came out of the water! Gr!!!

Later when it started to get dark, Dallin was making a firework...yes he MADE a firework, but it was cool! So we went outside and started lighting stuff off! It was a lot of fun! Altogether it was a GREAT day! :D

Hmmm....

I got offered a job in California. I want to take it. My parents want me to stay and finish school.

Staying in Utah:

Pros: Family, insurance, comfort, friends, school,

Cons: Not growing up and taking responsibility, not experiencing life, Not a "big" push for finding a job,

California:

Pros: I would have a job, a place to stay (my own room, bathroom, and car) Save money for school, live with friends I know

Cons: Won't start school back up, lose a friend to a boss, Won't get my degree

I won't have money there for school....and I won't have money for school out here....what is holding me back?! I will still want to return to school...but will I?

I just don't know what to do....

Tonight

Well tonight I went babysitting for Jenn....I started at 6:30 and they got home about 9:30 so I could go babysitting for my 2nd cousin or something like that!!! Well Andrew was very tired and threw a tantrum....ugh lets just say it was a nightmare! Then off to my 2nd cousins....Her name is Heather. And I had to go all the way to 3300 S. and 200E. I didn't know it was that far and at 10 at night it is pretty scary. And they told me I could get on the computer...but I got ontoo facebook and guess who started talking to me....?! Ya that girl who is trying to ruin my life! First thing she says...Chase got home yesterday...wtf...I haven't talked to this girl in years....ugh anyway there are some other frustrating things that I'm not going to post....Hope the night gets better!

I love my life!

So I really didn't think any one was reading this...but I just found out that two people read my blog!!! My Uncle Leland and my neighbor Tanya! Bless her soul, She is going to talk to her boss about hiring me on! woot!



And life is just great!



I went to youth conference and we went to camp williams which is scary boot camp sargent guys yelling at you. I then repelled off a tower thing, against a wall, and free fall. It was so scary I was almost screaming the whole way down! Then the next night we went and slept in Willow park and were up til one in the morning and up at six! And my team and I were watching Cloudy with a chance of meatballs on the way there and back and it was really cute. We all had an inside joke, I would say "Steve", then Mckay dobbins would say "Yellow", then nicole sorenson would say "Gummy bears". It was a total blast!



Then on Sunday was fathers day and we gave my dad his presents which were, a new I-pod thingy and a flag case for my grandpa's funeral flag. We are going to put his war medals in it as well. I think he got 4 medals. I know one is the bronze star, but no body know's why he got it. He never really talked about the war. I mean NEVER, to the point I forgot he had served! But after that we went to my grandma's house where we had a BBQ!!! :D It was delicious! yummy! Everyone was there! I had a great time, listening to the stories, I never really talk much at family parties anymore...I don't know why. But all in all it was a WONDERFUL day!



Then today on Monday, Krysteen and I had a cow racing-pool party! It started at 10a.m. and went pretty much all day! I had a blast even though it was Krysteen's friends who showed up. there was Mckay sharp, William Lickiss, Arenn , Joel , Payden hoover, Jase Hoover, Benny , Becky , Skyler (my brother), Amber (Sister). It was great fun!



Then I went to class. Yes it was waxing day! I have been waiting for this day for so long! Because I haven't been able to shave. But Shelby Burton waxed my legs, and oh man...I thought I felt a few tears leave my eyes. I'm still a little sore, but that should be gone soon! Then I got a facial and she put the cleanser on and my cheeks started burning! So I told her, and so she put a different cleanser on and it still burned. But I didn't tell her because I felt bad. So she finally got that one off and put exfoilient on...Holy cow! If ever there was a time I wanted to scream...so I told her and she took it off. Then she started the massage, and I don't remember the rest...because...I fell asleep! :D



But this has been my wonderful life!!! :D



"No regrets, just have fun," - Daddy (Kirk Roger Olson)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

Today in class we decided to have a birthday party! because being at night we all get a little tired and needed a little pick me up. So we partied! Everyone brought food, and bubbles, and party hats. And when someone would ask who's birthday it was we would simply say...it's someone's birthday out there. It was so much fun I took like...two pictures! I will post them eventually! but we had our birthday party and then I got a facial because that is what we are learning and then after that we basically sat and talked about booth rent and brazillian waxing and waxing in general! It really was a great night, I wish it didn't have to end. But once class was over Shelby and I went to Jordan landing where we went to visit her boyfriend Chad Aderson! They are so cute together! Chad and I are best friends that have a secret hand shake! YAY!!! it is so cool! Shelby and I decided that he is a vampire because he walks super fast just like Edward Cullen! haha So we just simply decided he was a vampire! hehe Good-night!

E-Mail

So today I got an e-mail from the missionary i'm writting...granted I e-mailed him first...only because I have gotten a letter in 2 months...I know that kind of sounds obsessive but...I use to get a letter 2 weeks after ever letter I sent. So this is dramatic! A couple months I found out this girl was writting him as well. Which I don't mind people writting him...but I swear this girl's goal in life is to destroy mine...She is mean and cruel and will go out of her way to hurt me. Well once she found out that I was writting him...guess who started writting him...that's right she did!!!! So I want to say it is her fault that she turned him against me...somehow. But those letter's made me feel special. Like someone out there in the world wanted me. Like there was a small glimpse of hope shinning for me. I don't want to say it but I would think about the future with him in it...how it would be. What would happen, how would our kids turn out, would we eventually end in a divorce, or would we live happily ever after like a fairy tale? These questions almost made it feel real. Like one day it would happen. But truth is, it probally won't once he gets home I won't see him. He gets home on June 25, 2010 about noon. That is what he said in his e-mail. I want to see him....but does he want to see me?!

Bordom

I thought night school would be great! :D Go to school at night sleep in and all that jazz. But actually I get really bored throughout the day. I haven't hung out with friends except catherine Lickiss and Shelby Burton! I'm in my second week of summer...this isn't normal! :/ ugh!!! AAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Waxing...

Well for esthetics's Shelby and I have to be waxed because our teacher said...It will happen next week but until then...We have been growing our hair out and so it is very long and VERY disgusting! haha But we will be waxing next week. where we will have an option of a Brazilian wax...For those of you who don't know...it's your cha-cha. Well Shelby and I were disgusting it and we are both terrified out of our shorts!!! haha oh dear. But we now everything will go well and are still indecisive about the Brazilian! haha oh my oh my...

Babysitting!

So on Friday I went to babysit for the Stringers as usual! And as I was cooking dinner Andrew (5) Asked me, "Mindi, are you married?"

"Nope."

"...(thinking) Well I have a mission for you,...Find someone you love...And marry them!"

haha "Ok I will eventually"

It was so cute! :D I love the kids I babysitt, They always make me smile!!! :D

college

I started college yesterday and now have a but load of homework that I get to play catch up on because Shelby Burton and I started about 4 weeks late because we just ended high school on Wednesday June 2, 2010. It was cool. I didn't exactly know what to think. I don't exactly feel graduated yet. But yet I feel the pressure of responsibility. To pay the bills, to get a job, and to get things done on time. I don't have that many bills. I am lucky that my parents decided to spoil me. But now that it is here growing up is coming and it is coming fast. I have to pay my own gas and They will make me pay insurance. All without a job, but I will be looking for one. I need to look for one. Although I really don't want to, I want to stay a little kid with no responsibilities but I guess with that attitude I won't get anywhere so I will buck up and start today. Find that job and do what needs to get done!

San Fran

(Left):Nadine and I were riding a double decker bus...it got windy...

A
(Up): A trolley that we saw.

(Left): Some of the most beautiful house we saw!!!

(Up): There were murals EVERYWHERE!!! :D

(Left): I got really piccture happy...this is us in the airport going to get our tickets! :D

I went to San francisco! :D It was so beautiful, and the origanality and the place to go and all the people! I saw dancers and protester and homeless people which made me realize how lucky I was to have a roof over my head and food to eat everyday! I never really realized how lucky one could be. As I walked down market street (Kind of the main street) I would see out of the corner of my eye a lady digging in a garbage can so that she could eat that day or a man hiding under cardboard so that he could stay warm and I saw another lady who attempted so many times to take shelter in a resturant and had to be taken out by security. As I lay in my bed I now think of those people and I lay there grateful, for my bed, for the food my father provides, and for the warmth of my many jackets that I could choose from. I love where I live and I am truely grateful for EVERYTHING!

I love you daddy

Let me tell you I love you,

You mean the world to me,

Your helping hand,

the words once said,

still in my head since three.

I love you daddy,

don't leave me now

I need you now with me

To hold my hand and lead the way

So I'll know what to say.

I love you dad

Your with me now,

To guide and show the way,

To teach me right from wrong you see,

And love me day by day.

I love you dad

And now I know

what to do and say

because you taught me right from wrong

I'll walk the chosen way.

Seminary Graduation

I just got home from seminary graduation. 4 years of attending seminary every other day. It was a long while, but I did it! No body made me go, I chose to do it on my own. My grandma and dad and mom came. And also some of my friends that graduated with me! I am very glad I had this oppertunity to graduate seminary with all 4 years completed. And now soon I will be graduating from high school, Wednesdays the day!

Stress!

I have to pay for school...I have to pay to eat on vacation...I want to have fun...I need to find a job, but don't want too...Please help me, My parents want me to do all this stuff but when I ask for help I usually dont get the help I need. They tell me to grow up and that I should be able to figure things out for myself. I'm still a little girl who didn't give a care about the world until this year and is now trying to play catch up! I wish I knew what I was doing...but truth be told, I don't have a clue. I don't know anything about bills or expenses, or government stuff, ask my friend Mady what I thought a fashist was...I feel I know nothing in this world of utter chaos. what is wrong?

Weeding...

Today I went over to my dearest friends Jenn Stringer and helped her weed her flower beds. After 3 hours of hard labor her yard was looking nice and so was my wallet! :D But I really enjoyed the time we spent together all the stories that were shared and the good times that was spent! :D I love you Jenn!!!! :D hehe

Now I know

Today I was walking up the stairs and I looked at some guys walking in the hallway below me and then next thing I new I was on my knees witha throbbing pain of hurt! I had fallen, tears came to my eyes as I was thinking of the pain. when I looked up and saw laughter, the tears were no longer for the pain. I started to laugh to hid the pain and ran up the stairs quickly to get away from the mocking faces. True it must have been funny and I probally would have laughed as well, but now I know.

Actions speak louder than words

Go do this, don't do that, why don't you listen to me?! Why is this house never clean? Why are you guys so lazy? You don't know how to work. You'll never get anywhere.

Well mom and dad let me show you what I see...

I go to school and then do my homework, except sometimes I can't get my homework done until late because I have spent my afternoon helping you or at school. I feel I always clean, clean more than you, I come home and it is do this do that why are you sitting on your butt's doing nothing? I'm really not that lazy, you just see me when I'm tired and not wanting to do anything else but watch t.v., And what have you done today? you got laundry done? Good. what else did you do? Played with Amber? that is good, what have you done dad? You went to work? come home ate and now your watching t.v.? You had a hard day at work, well I had a hard day at school, does that mean I get to sit and watch t.v.? no I have to do dishes...alright. Mindi get me this, but I'm working on something, just get it for me...ok (walk walk walk) oh hey look at that, Skyler and Mom are sitting right next to you watching t.v. And you couldn't of had one of them get up and get you your drink?

I guess what I'm saying is I don't do to much, but look around me...I don't see anyone else doing anything.

What a life

6 Days until I graduate, trying to figure out who gets tickets and who doesn't. I have one more, but the one person who I want to give it to won't answer her dang phone!!!! :/

hmmm.....Tonight we as a family are going to be watching Harry Potter. I love Harry Potter one of the best movies ever! Haven't read any of the books but I LOVE the movies! :D

One of my favorite people is my little sister Amber. She always brightens my day when I am sad and she is there to help me have fun through the day. One time I was crying because I was scared and she told me not to be scared because the light was on. Which it was, both physically and spiritually. Christ was there with me and I could feel it.

Last night I had a dream that I got married! Exciting every girls dreams! :D But when I looked at my new husband he had the face of my bishop...AKWARD! hehe

Yesterday was a fun day! :D I weeded my backyard for the first time this year and then at 2 the laruals of our class had a going away party for all those who are moving and who might leave us. then after our little get together me and Catherine went to pick up my friend Kristin from the TRAX station closest to us and we went to Old Navy because they had there flip flops for only a $1. well we got there at they were gone figures it was 5:00 at night! So then we dropped Kristin off at TRAX because she needed to get home and me and Catherine went to the mall. And her mother Vikki texted Catherine that she needed to come home. So we packed up from the mall and left. Then as we were driving we figured out that Catherine really didn't need to go home and something was just misiterpreted. so we wen to wal*mart where I for 2 cute flip flops ($2/ea.) and a way adorable shirt ($1) I was pretty proud of myself. After we left wal*mart we ventured on to our ward party to sign a song and eat some food! :D There we ran into Michelle (Catherines sister) and Carmen and her familia! Where I got to eat some yummy enchaladas! :D and learned to say and spell, "Hola, mi nombre es, Mindi!" Which means Hello my name is Mindi or you could say "Hola, lloma Mindi" I call myself Mindi! :D then Me, Catherine, Krysteen (mi sister), and Andres ventured back to wal*mart where we bought a way cute jacket for Krysteen. Then off to mi casa where we played games. Where Carmen, Migeul and Nielly would soon come to join! :D It was a great night filled of fun and splendor! :D

What a life!!! :D

Cosmetology fun

This is one of my many hair-do's that I always manage to to...

Homework....

Don't you just love those 3 pages essays that are on a topic that you think you know nothing about....

Curbed2 (Squared)

Tonight was young womens. I really just did not want to go, I have a 3 page paper due tomorrow that I still need to type and make perfect and I just was n0t in the mood to go. But I went to drop off my sister and decided to stay for opening exercises, because there would be treats!!! :D YUM! And I am so glad that I decided to stay. I had such a blast! I am really grateful for all the friends I have and everyone that I know! I feel so blessed to be able to go somewhere each week and feel like I have friends that I can laugh and have fun without worrying what they are thinking about me. I love them dearly!!! :D